Emotional Outburst

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I believe emotions are positively engraved in our beings for our good use. If not for those emotions to be expressed, we could burst and be destroyed. It's like volcanoes in our beloved planet. We have them in order for heat to come out from inside of the Earth. As we noticed, after every major volcanic eruption tranquility of the land follows. What had been destroyed, a new life sprang up -- more beautiful, more pleasant.

Just like emotions, after we allowed it to come out, a calming feeling followed after our exhaustion. At first, we feel guilty for giving in such outburst. Yet, we feel grateful for it to be over. Of course, we have to give reparations for feelings that had been hurt, ours and the people affected.

There may be some people who are matured enough to express their feelings - positive and negative in a positive way. But how about us, who are still fledglings in the road to maturity? It is inevitable for us to blow. After all, we are just humans.

This is my contemplation for this day -- emotional outburst. It is because until now I am still carrying the damage done by my emotional outbursts sometime in July and September last year. I just expressed myself and opinion over something I saw was wrong. I expressed my side of the coin. Only that the people involved just did not understand. Or maybe, would not want to understand? Whatever their stand is, I have no right to judge. That was their choice. Only that I was treated with a cold shoulder until now. Communication was cut. I tried to reach out, but I had been repeatedly ignored. Okay. Should I cry? I did. But it's over now. Life must go on. I should let go of people's feelings. Perhaps the one thing that still made those people hate me is that, until now I am not still able to ask forgiveness for what I have done. For me, forgiveness is neither be demanded nor mandatory. If we are that loving enough, we forgive people regardless of whether they ask for it or not. Forgiveness should be in our hearts always because people are just people. They always hurt us in ways they sometimes overlooked.

This is the reason why emotional outburst for me is natural. Because I know I could forgive those people who pushed me to it and also myself for expressing such displeasure over something. It may sound difficult to ask forgiveness when you know both of you are on the wrong side. But I guess, what matters is patching relationships, healing hurt feelings and being sensitive to people's weaknesses. Yeah, perhaps this is the weakness of certain people -- to be too right in everything that you need to yield to them in order to please them. How could I help them see the light? Only through prayers. I hope God would enlighten us all that we may start our new year with peace. And yeah, I'll find a way to ask forgiveness for hurting their feelings. This is what works for me the best.